Although I was accused of rubbing my Hickman Line against my
Venting PEG to give myself Sepsis.
Laughable, I know.
However, whether I have or had Anorexia or not, it makes no difference because either way I still have extremely compromised absorption as a result a Gastrointestinal Failure,
Oesophageal Dysmotility, Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth and Chronic Intestinal Pseudo Obstruction.
So as much as I'd like to be able to absorb things and gain weight, it's nigh on impossible with these conditions! And that's just to name a mere few of them.
TPN has been decommissioned and I'm just waiting for it all to be removed from my house. In the meantime I'm still shoving my face and praying for a friggin' miracle.
I've not managed to gain any weight and instead just keep filling up with fluid, having umpteen hospital admissions and/or paramedics out for various reasons and I've just well and truly had enough.
No, I'm not suicidal, I'm just tired of this ridiculous 'life'. I'm still plodding on and doing all I can
to push through, it's just mentally and physically exhausting when there's seemingly no light at
the end of the tunnel and no let-up in between it all.